Helping Myself

the tears well up in my eyes
as i think of what he did tonight
the pain he caused me
and how i withdrew

i tried to cry out for help
but there was no where i could turn
no one would answer
why can't i simply learn

do people just get sick of me?
and my childish behaviour
or were they just busy
me being the pessimist

but i won't let him control me
cause he's God's not mine
no matter how i try to change him
just lining for disappointment

so i keep saying
he's yours, heal him your way
for i don't know what's in his past
not sure i want to

so i simply, stop crying
and feeling sorry for myself
cause things will get better
while myself i continue to help