Yet I Still

i want to talk, but i just cant
i need to let this go
what am i meant to do
when hardly anyone knows

how would they take the news
would they go against me?
i should have more faith in God
that he would never hurt me

but yet i still keep quiet
cause i don't know what he'll do
yet i still hold it in
it would eat a hole through you

i have to talk to someone
but theres no where i can turn
it makes my stomach twist
coping is what i've learnt

waking up each morning
knowing the hell i'll face
i've got an hour, that's it
until he turns to wake

but yet i still keep quiet
cause i don't know what he'll do
yet i still hold it in
it would eat a hole through you

one moment is all it takes
for the yelling to begin
one glance in my direction
there is always something

he doesn't seem to notice
the harm this does to me
how many years of councelling
before the hole has healed

but yet i still keep quiet
cause i don't know what he'll do
yet i still hold it in
it would eat a hole through you

maybe he's grown up with this
knowing nothing else
maybe i deserve it
for look at what i've done

but i deserve forgiveness
everyone gets a 2nd chance
i deserve a father
who loves me with each glance

but yet i still keep quiet
cause i don't know what he'll do
yet i still hold it in
it would eat a hole through you

i feel like i am coping
but some days i break down
i cry and fall at God's feet
knowing he forgives me

for i'm worth his sons life
i'm worth forgiveness
i'm worth the heavens
i'm worth more than this

but yet i still keep quiet
cause i dont know what he'll do
yet i still hold it in
it would eat a hole through you

i wake up everyday
praying today is better
God is worth living for
one day things will be better

but yet i still keep going
cause i know i can beat this
yet i still cope
for one day i will be free