Writings of a Poet

Still Waiting for that Day

2010-03-17T23:30:00.000+08:00

battling against something big
longing for a change
whether be moving out
still waiting for that day

fighting for who knows how long
praying that he'll change
whether be small and insignificant
still waiting for that day

don't know how long i'll last here
with things the way they are
knowing it wont be forever
still waiting for that day

wishing that i wouldnt cry
or that people wouldnt see me
less often sure now
still waiting for that day

maybe i've learned to cope with it
to see the joy in things surround
maybe i'm just used to it
still waiting for that day

the day he'll stop
the day things change
the day Christ comes
still waiting for that day

How much longer?

2010-03-17T23:29:00.001+08:00

how do i cope with this
his insults hurling at me
what about him for goodness sakes!
how much longer Lord?

i can't take this too much longer
been saying that for years
my heart yearns to be free of this
how much longer Lord?

he cant see all i do for him!
calling me inconsiderate!
it angers me deeply
how much longer Lord?

to forgive him is a task
something i've grown used to
every sunday without fail
how much longer Lord?

but will things change when i leave?
what habits will it break?
my eyes well up with tears oh Lord
how much more can I take?

Facebook Obsession

2010-01-15T14:44:00.000+08:00

it angers me so much
this obsession that he has!
why can't family come first?
if only he'd answer that...

him and his stupid cafe!
it drives me completely mad!
but no facebook is more important
seemingly to my dad

but no i have to give it
give it all to God
rid the anger that i have
give me your peace Lord

take this anger and his obsession
work in him would you please?
let his life be family focused
let himself be set free

maybe he doesnt know
how to separate facebook from home
but its clearly defined you see
or maybe he doesn't see it

it's tearing apart our family
not that it ever was together
it's caused such grief, such heartache
if only he could see

many tears, much sadness
no sense of unity
only God makes life bearable
God, please set this captive free

Joanne

2010-01-15T14:20:00.001+08:00

to my dearest Jo
my comfort and best friend
may your smile warm many hearts
and your spirit light the way

may your helpful willingness
keep you smiling through the day
may your help and guidance
reach out and touch a life

the help that you've given me
can intercept no other
no other could replace you
no other could take your place

so to my beautiful best friend
the precious person that you are
may God still light your path
even in your darkest hour

so smile as you wake each morning
and get up every day
and know that i'll always care for you
and pray at the start of each new day

Light

2010-01-07T13:23:00.000+08:00

light shines through the clouds
heavenly array it seems
reflecting off each surface
only way it can be seen

it's reaction to different things
and the colours it portrays
shining ever brightly
at different parts of the day

not afraid to show it's light
and the talent that it holds
something that can't be hidden
no matter how hard it tries

always someone will see it
somewhere on this earth
for the light hides from no one
like Christ since his birth

Christmas

2009-12-12T21:57:00.001+08:00

joy surrounds us at this time
as christmas draws nearer
smiles on children's faces
as santa knocks on their door

carolers singing merrily
candy canes handed out
laughter and happiness fills the air
when this time rolls around

calendars fully booked
with various celebrations
credit cards maxed out
with all the gifts to buy

family and friends gather round
to join in annual traditions
christmas trees go up
as parents put the star on top

wise men gathered round a manger
to welcome a gorgeous baby boy
a baby born in bethlehem
welcomed in the hay

above the stable rose a star
of which the shepherds followed
saviour, king, lord of all
living still this day

Thank You

2009-12-10T21:46:00.000+08:00

i want to say thank you
for those who've helped me recently
cause God knew i needed it
to help me persevere

i want to say thank you
to those i've known so long
but never took the chance
to finally get to know

i want to say thank you
for friends both new and old
for friendship is what helps us
to strive through each day

i want to say thank you
to those who've held me when i've cried
those who just hug me on a sunday morning
to those who've listened intentively

i want to say thank you
for those who've prayed for me
although i feared it for a while
and it's something new to me

i want to say thank you
for the smiles and the laughs
for the talks and the coffee
for just taking the time

i want to say thank you
for everything you've done for me
for life is better with you in it
so thank you for being you

Smile

2009-12-10T20:16:00.001+08:00

i know you may feel down right now
but look to me and see
the pride in my eyes
the flood of tears leading from me

for i am so proud of you
and everything you've done for me
all the achievements you have accomplished
so please smile, just for me

i know what he said hurt so much
that you ran crying from the house
i know it'll take time to overcome this
and the childhood youve had

but please, my girl, please smile
show me that glint in your eye
show me a face free of sorrow
just please smile for me girl

it will take time to heal, i get it
but look at the blessings youve got
your strength and persistence
are great assets to you

look at the people who love you
jo, leeann, ida, carol
if not for me, smile for them
for they love you so

i know it's hard to get through each day
but you push and persevere
you can do this my girl
just smile for me, please

Slowly Being Healed

2009-12-10T12:22:00.001+08:00

i come home and he says
"why are you here?"
"i don't want you here"
so why did i come

and so i run, and he doesn't follow
doesn't he feel any remorse?
i cry and trip, and wake
but still no sign

so i run to a park and cry
cry out to my lord above
not "why have you forsaken me"
but "show him your love"

can't my dad just see
everything God sees in me
all he's done is let me down
why can't it be like it used to be

so i pray
i pray for dad, and i pray for me
but still i cry, like the broken girl i am
who is slowly being healed

A Prayer

2009-12-07T17:00:00.000+08:00

Father, Lord, God above
i pray that he will see Your love
show him what it means to see
all the work You have done in me

i pray he sees Your compassion
Your sincerity and worth of praise
i pray he sees what i'm worth to You
and stops the abuse that he lays

stop him banging on my door
as he hurls words at me
i pray he sees the error of his ways
and sees what You have done and will do

for You have done a mighty work in me
to change me from what i was
You have been there through thick and thin
and You have seen what i have become

for i know i have made mistakes
but You died for me, to show Your grace
i pray that my dad, my father sees that
and he accepts that heart of forgiveness

i pray that he sees what You have always seen
i pray dad sees what he has done
i pray that he listens to You
and that he truly gives his heart to You

in Your name i do pray this
Lord of all of the earth
Father, Lord, God above
in this, i say, amen

God's Child

2009-12-07T16:31:00.000+08:00

i feel you all around me
this familiar tingling sensation
i feel you breathing into me
i feel you in my life

you're holding me, your dear child
youve got your hand on me
you have since the start of time
forever you have held me

you hold that lock every night
not wanting harm to come upon me
for you and i both know
that what he does is wrong

i shouldnt feel afraid
for thou my god is with me
i shouldnt be dismayed
for my god you are king

you hold my life in your hands
you give me warmth at night
you calm my fears and stop my shakes
youre with me all the way

youll support me through my trying times
you cried when i detterred
but never did i stop believing in you
and in my life i never will

What I'm Worth

2009-12-07T16:30:00.000+08:00

the support i feel around me
is foreign and unknown
but i'm seeming to like it
i feel i have a home

the friends i've made
were few and far between
but this friendship i now know
is i believe good for me

i used to bottle it in
but now i know to listen
for one good deed is not unnoticed
although perhaps anonymous

to finally talk and to be heard
for people to believe me
with the past that i've had
i thought it would never happen

to not be judged, but welcomed
with compassion and sincerity
to feel that sensation
that is now only too familiar

i feel that i can breathe
without counting in my head
i dont feel suffocated
that in the past i have

for encouragement is needed
support and security
because i may not have seen this
but i deserve to be free

free of pain, of grief and sorrow
to stop feeling sorry for myself
to be my own woman
to show the world what i'm worth

Scream to the Heavens

2009-12-04T00:17:00.002+08:00

* please note this is written in an alternate perspective

i scream to the heavens
how beautiful you are
i want you to believe it
for i know you have started

you deserve to be blessed
after this life of abuse
you deserve to be happy
you deserve to live the dream

for dreams will be reality
you will achieve it someday
i wasnt lying when i said
you are amazing

the strength that you hold
that has pulled you through this
the passion and devotion
knowing when you need help

for I LOVE YOU my girl
my gorgeous little blossom
your smile lights my day
i'll never let you go

you're worth too much to me
like bella and edward
the pain she felt when he left
is what i'd grieve for you

no way will i lose you
i wont let you go
my hand is on your life
and never will it move

Reality

2009-12-04T00:03:00.001+08:00

excitement fills my whole body
as i think of today
what i have accomplished
and the things i have done

a smile spreads across my face
at God's warm and comforting embrace
the joy in my heart
the spring in my step

how i could do so much
and be so happy is foreign
i must be doing something right
for all of these blessings

to see how bright my future is
apparently its blinding
teacher, pastor, mentor
what could be better

for i know one way or another
i will achieve my dreams
for they will stop being dreams one day
they will be reality

Your hand on me

2009-12-03T23:48:00.002+08:00

you've had your hand on me
all of my life
through the darkness and pain
forgiveness and strife

you've had your hand on me
when i first began to turn
when i came out
you helped me to learn

you've had your hand on me
each of these days
when i'm overjoyed with happiness
for you light my way

you've had your hand on me
when i was shaking with fear
the first night he came home
smelling of whisky

you've had your hand on me
when i cried myself to sleep
holding me tight
although i didn't see it

you've had your hand on me
even tonight
when the thought of my dad
made me shake with fright

you calmed my fears
and made me realise
you've been through it all with me
you're here with me now

Healing

2009-11-24T00:15:00.000+08:00

the strength i draw from him
gets me through each day
the comfort when i'm crying
the friendship in the darkness

i cry out, and he listens
i close my eyes and i see
i feel his touch and i breathe
it's some normality

he strokes my hair gently
he holds me when i cry
this could be imagination
but i feel it's not, can't tell why

he knows that i need him
and wouldn't survive each day without
the pain and emptiness inside me
he prevents me from lashing out

but i'm learning self control
to give it all to him
i still can't see without him
but i don't want to

God provides normality
something stable in my life
he's the loving father i never had
he's healing this battered life

Helping Myself

2009-11-23T23:39:00.001+08:00

the tears well up in my eyes
as i think of what he did tonight
the pain he caused me
and how i withdrew

i tried to cry out for help
but there was no where i could turn
no one would answer
why can't i simply learn

do people just get sick of me?
and my childish behaviour
or were they just busy
me being the pessimist

but i won't let him control me
cause he's God's not mine
no matter how i try to change him
just lining for disappointment

so i keep saying
he's yours, heal him your way
for i don't know what's in his past
not sure i want to

so i simply, stop crying
and feeling sorry for myself
cause things will get better
while myself i continue to help

Glimmer of Hope

2009-11-17T16:47:00.000+08:00

darkness surrounds me
as i don't see any light
no voice, no sign
only a single fright

i hear a voice, very distant
saying "find me, find me girl"
i still see only darkness
of what feels to be hell

a glimmer shows far away
says "i'm running to you girl"
he gets here and smiles
says "i'll never let you go"

his arms wrap around me
as i cry in his arms
i say "don't leave me"
as i continue to cry

he says "i love you"
"everything will turn out"
i say "i feel weak"
he says "i'm strong"

"take me with you each day"
"it's only one little thing"
"you'll get through this, i promise"
i say "with you, anything"

Yet I Still

2009-11-04T21:13:00.001+08:00

i want to talk, but i just cant
i need to let this go
what am i meant to do
when hardly anyone knows

how would they take the news
would they go against me?
i should have more faith in God
that he would never hurt me

but yet i still keep quiet
cause i don't know what he'll do
yet i still hold it in
it would eat a hole through you

i have to talk to someone
but theres no where i can turn
it makes my stomach twist
coping is what i've learnt

waking up each morning
knowing the hell i'll face
i've got an hour, that's it
until he turns to wake

but yet i still keep quiet
cause i don't know what he'll do
yet i still hold it in
it would eat a hole through you

one moment is all it takes
for the yelling to begin
one glance in my direction
there is always something

he doesn't seem to notice
the harm this does to me
how many years of councelling
before the hole has healed

but yet i still keep quiet
cause i don't know what he'll do
yet i still hold it in
it would eat a hole through you

maybe he's grown up with this
knowing nothing else
maybe i deserve it
for look at what i've done

but i deserve forgiveness
everyone gets a 2nd chance
i deserve a father
who loves me with each glance

but yet i still keep quiet
cause i don't know what he'll do
yet i still hold it in
it would eat a hole through you

i feel like i am coping
but some days i break down
i cry and fall at God's feet
knowing he forgives me

for i'm worth his sons life
i'm worth forgiveness
i'm worth the heavens
i'm worth more than this

but yet i still keep quiet
cause i dont know what he'll do
yet i still hold it in
it would eat a hole through you

i wake up everyday
praying today is better
God is worth living for
one day things will be better

but yet i still keep going
cause i know i can beat this
yet i still cope
for one day i will be free

You Give Me

2009-11-02T09:42:00.002+08:00

You give me water when I'm thirsty
You give me faith in place of despair
You give me courage when I'm afraid
You give me everything I need

You give me joy in times of sadness
You give me hope in times of loss
You give me grace when I'm angry
You gave it all upon the cross

You give me healing when I'm hurt
You give me friends when I'm lonely
You gave your life to give me this
Now all I can give is myself to you

No Fear

2009-11-02T09:37:00.002+08:00

The dark of night
Holds mysteries unknown
Many people fear
Of what they don't know

But in Isaiah it says
Be not afraid
For God is with you
Every step of the way

While you sleep
He protects you
He comforts your fears
He always knows what to do

So in the dark of night
Know he is near
He will never leave you
So there is no need to fear

Too Much Hope

2009-10-18T22:45:00.001+08:00

is it too much to hope for
that one night he won't come home drunk
are my expectations too high
to see the pride in his eyes

i'm not sure it exists
to feel he's proud of me
i'm not sure he loves
the woman i've become

he never says he loves me
or smiles in my direction
some say he wants to be like me
and that that is why he acts this way

but i'm not so sure
as he opens that door
whether he loves me or not
i wish that he'd show it

he's my dad and i love him
and i try to show him so
is this why i've built that wall
to not let my feelings show

but yet i still keep going
with the pain i hold inside
and yet i still hope
that one day this hole will heal

You Are

2009-10-14T07:28:00.001+08:00

*please note this is written from an alternate perspective

you are my pride and joy
that glint within my eyes
the sparkle in my cheek
every tear i cry

you are the princess of my heart
my beautiful shining star
my lighthouse on a hill
shining light so far

you are heavens haileys comet
my miracle from birth
the reason i did die
and then come back to earth

you are worth more than jewels
more than life itself
the potential that you hold
is greater than the earth

your smile means a thousand words
it brightens up each day
your faith is ever growing
to many others dismay

the love i hold for you
is greater than all things
my girl, my daughter
you're worth everything

Written on the 14 October 2009

Beaten at the Grave

2009-10-13T07:47:00.002+08:00

He thinks that physical hurts me
When that's severely not the case
Emotional, words, cruelty
Is what hurts the most

But still he endeavors to attack me
Numerous times a day
Psychological and painful
In almost every way

But everyday I get stronger
And try to fight him off
I succeed and I fail
Succeeding more times than not

He completely hates it
The strength I have within me
For he is already defeated
On that cross at Calvary

Christ beat him at the grave
But still he tries to return
I wonder how can he not get it
When will he simply learn

So I wake up each morning
Knowing it's another day
More attacks, more defeats
For satan will never get his way

Perfect Sustainance

2009-10-12T16:36:00.000+08:00

psalm 1:1 to 3 says
that you sustain our every breathe
you cause us to wake each morning
you provide us with all we need

you created the animals and the sea
to preserve us, to keep us going
you love each of us including me
and you save us a place in heaven

for you wanted each one of us
but still you do lose some
you made us with a will to believe
you gave us a free will though

you didnt want to force us
you just wanted love
for heaven is within us, not around us
so there is a heaven on earth

you love us new with each morning
you're the same yesterday, today and forever
you gave us your son, one and only
so what more could we need

Written on the 12 October 2009

Value

2009-10-12T16:34:00.000+08:00

I look at a $100 note
And think of all that it could buy
How much people want it
And what they are willing to try

No matter where it’s been
Its values still the same
Everybody wants it
It is always worth the same

You show it to a person
It means the same to another
Forever its value means
The same to everyone

It’s like our worth to Jesus
And how much we mean to Him
No matter what we do
He always forgives our sin

Where we’ve been and what we’ve done
He forgives the sin of everyone
No second thought or single guess
He is still wanting our best

Our value is always still the same
He would have died anyway
No matter what we’ve done or where we’ve been
We’ll always be worth it to Him

Written on the 10 October 2009

No Mistake

2009-10-12T16:27:00.000+08:00

You say to me you love me
That I mean everything to you
You say to me you care
About everything I do

And I’m extremely grateful
About everything you've done
I could never leave you
For you've done so much for me

I love you with each breathe
And trust you'll keep me safe
I love you more than words can say
And every step I take

I love you for your compassion
And pushing me into line
I love you more than words can say
And keeping with the times

You get me through each moment
And capture every tear
You say you run out of bottles
And you help me to release every fear

For committing to you was no mistake
And I know that with every breathe I take
You make life worth it through and through
And I will never let go of you

Written on the 23 September 2009

Gods Pride

2009-10-12T16:09:00.001+08:00

* please note this is written from a different perspective

i look at you and all i do
is cry tears of pride and joy
you took a step that terrified you
and you sat there and endured it

to say that i am proud of you
is a drastic understatement
for pride does not describe
what you did today

you shook and got bleary eyed
but still you held on strong
you sat there and endured it
no way is that wrong

and now you sit here
as i write this for you
with the tears of pride
in my eyes

for you were more than great
for great sure doesnt cut it
for i am so incredibly
proud of you

Written on the 23 September 2009

Till That Day

2009-10-12T16:06:00.001+08:00

pain swells within me
like a hole tearing wide
eating away my insides
when all i do is cry

he is getting worse
its as clear as day
he well and truly hates me
it hurts so much to say

his words and actions prove it
but i shouldnt really care
cause apparently i can take it
with this inside of despair

you learn best through example
so my brothers are learning too
younger has a conscience
older has a heart

but still younger batters
just like his father does
for he learns from example
and still cant see the blood

the pain all this is causing me
and only one thing i can do
move out, far away
but thats not something i can do

so i just keep crying
everyday to sleep
and i just bear through it
till that one day when i'm free

Written on the 23 September 2009

No Regrets

2009-10-12T15:39:00.001+08:00

* please note this is written from an alternate perspective

no regrets do i have from saving you
you've been worth every second since i died for you

your heart is pure and honest with small mistakes
but still you show such amazing grace

you forgive when forgiveness is not returned
you cry for both sorrow and much joy

your heart always longs for something more
even if it is just an open door

you're honest about things that you wouldnt share
and still you take such amazing care

you care about those around you so much
and wouldnt want to hurt the ones you love

still you do make small mistakes
but forgiveness is the key along with grace

you've been worth every second since i died for you
no regrets do i have from saving you

Written on the 15 September 2009

Second Chances

2009-10-12T15:38:00.000+08:00

i used to hold all this pain
and bitterness inside me
not unforgiveness
but regret

i used to hold resentment
towards the greatest pain of my life
one i couldnt let go
and that nothing would help

but tonight, it was amazing
the way she spoke, the emotion
plus with God's gentle words
i slowly saw, what he did

the man who'd hurt me long ago
and what God saw in him
it made me let go
of the resentment i had towards him

i let go of so many things
the pain, the fear, the grief
i let go of so much
and it made me weep

he forgave me for what i'd done
he's forgiven my heart
he's cleansed my soul
and he's pushed my goals

he's taught me to pray
to forgive
to laugh after sorrow
and to talk

cause i cant hold it
all inside me
it will eat away
and slowly destroy me

so i let it go tonight
the resentment i held for him
cause i can tell he has changed
and everyone deserves second chances

Written on the 15 September 2009

You Say

2009-10-12T15:27:00.001+08:00

* please note this is written in an alternate perspective

you say you can't do this
you say you'll just fail
but i don't believe that
i believe this is real

you say you're not worth it
you say why me
but i chose you for a reason
that reason you don't see

for you are my daughter
and in you there's faith
just know and believe
that there'll always be grace

begin to believe
your ability in this
have confidence and enthusiasm
no matter how scary it is

for you i know can do this
you i know will
you i know can show them
what this amazing young woman can do

Written on the 7 September 2009

I Love You

2009-10-12T15:23:00.001+08:00

* please note this is written in an alternate perspective

I love you because I care for you
And made you who you are
I love you because you’re wonderful
And always make me laugh

I love you because you’re human
And sometimes make mistakes
I love you because you worship me
In a variety of ways

I love you because you sympathise
Sometimes for yourself
I love you because you’re passionate
About everything I love

I love you because you talk to me
And pray every single day
I love you because you’re simple
And the right things you tend to say

I love you because you care
About everyone around
I love you because you’re special
In many more ways than one

I love you because you’re you
You’re what I made you to be
I love you because you’re different
But still endeavour to be like me

You’re nature is compassionate
You’re beautiful and true
You’re honest and amazing
For that is why I love you

Written on the 2 September 2009

Two Choices

2009-10-12T15:21:00.000+08:00

some things we do are determined
some things we say without thinking
some things we are destined to do
some things of our own free will

no matter which way we follow
no matter where we begin
but always will we end up
where we are destined to finish

for life is not about the beginning
and life is not about the end
its about the journey we take
alone or with a friend

some choose to do it alone
some to do it with God
but always, when we finish
we'll look back and see the start

so we all have 2 choices
to smile and be glad
for with God by our side anything's possible
theres no reason to be sad

or we can choose to trek it
alone on that wavy path
with no hope, no joy, no laughter
and no happiness in sight

Written on the 29 August 2009

Effects

2009-10-12T15:09:00.000+08:00

I think of how much you've done for me
All the things you've said
Which doors you have opened
Which lessons I have learned

I begin to see your love for me
That smile on your face
The tears of pride within your eyes
And your never-ending grace

I feel your hand within mine
And one hand upon my cheek
My heart beats somewhat faster
My legs begin to go weak

I begin to see what you see in me
That glint within your eyes
You use your hand to lift my face
And capture every tear I cry

I see that life is worth it
To earn my crown above
For you make life worth living
With your unconditional...love

Written on the 22 August 2009

Dad

2009-10-12T15:04:00.000+08:00

Why does my dad hate me?
Why does he spite everything I do?
Why does he always blame me?
For I don’t lift the glass he drinks

I don’t pour his vodka and whisky
I try to not hurt him in any way
But yet his words they still hurt
As they do everyday

He yells and he screams
He abuses and blames
I can’t do anything right
I wish he'd see where I stand

His tongue it seems
Is a double edged sword
He uses it curse
Rather than bless

If only he could see
The effect it has on me!
How I hope and I dream
That God finally gets to him

He says he's a Christian
But Christianity is everyday!
It’s not just a Sunday
To his dismay

But yet I still love him
Yet I still hope
Yet I still dream
That he'll see what God sees in me

Written on the 22 August 2009

The Race

2009-10-12T15:03:00.001+08:00

When the fight is finished
When the race is run
Will He find you faithful?
Will He say well done?

What can you compare
To all he's done for us
Dying on that cross
Shedding his own blood

Do you try to help others
Push them to do their best
Or do you guide them off track
With other things to obsess

Sure there will be hurdles
Sure things push you off
But it’s not about mistakes
It’s what you learn from them

I’m not saying be perfect
No where near, far from
I’m saying run the race ahead
For all you do is learn

Let God help to guide you
Let him push you on the track
For its not what you do wrong
It’s how you get on back

Written on the 22 August 2009

Now Course

2009-10-12T15:01:00.000+08:00

I started this course with one thing in mind
A question, a thought, no answer
I continue to puzzle over this one thing
And hope for my question answered

How will this course benefit me?
Will it be like I’ve imagined
Will we be friends or family?
Will my questions be answered?

Will I enjoy going to class
Not dreading like all last semester
Will I pass or will I fail
For failing was all I knew

I now feel confident in what I am saying
And lose my tongue at times
But we're all there to help each other
Old, middle aged and young

For friends in my eyes doesn’t cut it
We’re closer like I was hoping
Wouldn’t say family quite at this stage
But would say there's no one like these

So yes my questions are answered
And it's been all I’ve hoped it to be
And yes I look forward to coming to class
And will be upset when it comes to an end

Written on the 11 August 2009

How Come

2009-10-12T14:59:00.000+08:00

how come i look but never see
how come i hear but never listen
how come i ask but never seek
how come i help but never learn

how can i do all this but never seem to reach the goal
how can i just stand this but never take action
so i ask you my friend, will you help me
will you help me with the willingness of your heart

because God knows that i need it
every time i cry myself to sleep
every time i wake from a nightmare
every time i stir in my dreams

so dear friend will you help me
to become the person i'm meant to be
will you help me to overcome this problem
will you help to set me free

only one can answer those questions
but again i hear but rarely listen
if only i'd accept the pain i bear
and hand that pain to him

for he bears all pain, all sorrow and all grief
he lifts you up from the dretches and gives you the relief you seek
he heals you of your broken heart and your bruised spirit
he carries your heavy pain

for he bears the power to heal
to help and to save
he bears the compassion to listen
not just to hear

so just hand your troubles over to him
take that pain off your shoulders
take that sorrow off your heart
and set this captive free

Written on the 10 August 2009

Fear of Prayer

2009-10-12T14:57:00.000+08:00

i know that prayer can't hurt me
for prayer is from the heart
i shouldn't let fear stop me
for i let that fear start

i will pray if i choose i want to
whether in private or for ears to hear
for everything else can only take me so far
so i have to release that fear

I'm not afraid of praying for people
its just others praying for me
for now that fear is mending
i'm slowly releasing that fear

for i dont want anything holding me back
from being completely open to you
for you say you wouldnt hurt me
and i only know your words to be true

so take this fear and throw it
keep it away from me
for in this moment i release it
and its firm clutch on me

Written on the 3 August 2009

To a Friend

2009-10-12T14:55:00.001+08:00

I think of all you’ve done for me
In this precious life of mine
The things you’ve shared, the help you gave
And the many numerous prayers

I think of all the time
That we have spent together
The advice that you have given
And our discussions of the weather

I think of all the comments
That you have given me
That small boost of confidence
That I hope that you can see

For you have helped me more than words
But still less than God above
For I am glad our paths have crossed
And the love within your heart

For you are truly amazing
An honest and blessing God sent
I have been looking for a way to say that
And this seems to be it

You have helped me to step out in faith
And I know that experience will come with time
But with God anything is possible
With both his will and mine

The love that you have for all of mankind
Is special as you can see
So thank you for everything that you have done
Especially for me

I hope that this can continue
And I expect it probably will
For you have truly helped me
And I hope that you will still

That first time that I met you
I don’t remember what I thought
But now that I seem to know you
I realise how great you are

So thank you for everything
And all the help you’ve given me
For you’re truly an inspiration
And amazing for what the eye can see

You’ve helped me to grow in this short time
And I can’t imagine what God has planned
For you have shown me some possibilities
Of what I can do with God’s hand

I hope that this has encouraged you
To keep going with who you are
For God made you special and so unique
For you are his bright and shining star

That person who listens and who helps
Who pushes you in the right direction
Who understands what God wants
With little or no correction

For those who can’t seem to hear him
You seem to be that helpful and guiding hand
That true and honest sister
Who will speak what’s on her mind

But I am only one perspective
And this is only one opinion
I can only say from personal experience
And I know there’s more to come

What I can see of Jesus
Is that he’s very much like you
Compassionate and honest
Are two words that I would use

For words can not nearly describe
How alike you are to him
For when I look at you
It’s like a mirror of our King

I hope you get what I mean
And what I’m trying to say
For you are one awesome woman
And I believe forever you’ll stay that way

That willing heart
That helpful soul
That sensitive spirit
One life can hold it all

Written on the 23 July 2009

Your Worth

2009-10-12T14:53:00.000+08:00

you're worth the heavens and the earth
the water of the sea
the birds within the sky
most of all, all of me

you're worth the sand upon the ground
the beat of every heart
everyone's desire
to simply be loved

you're worth the animals of the land
the birds of the sky
every heart that is lost
but mostly all hearts won

you're worth every tear that's shed
every joy within a heart
every thought of every mind
and every smile on each face

you're worth the sunrise and sunset
the dew of each morning
the stars within the sky
and the sun around the earth

you're worth the blood that was shed
the pain that Christ bore
the tears that Christ shed
and the sin that he took

you're worth the heavens and the earth
each breathe that you take
so smile and be happy
for you're worth everything

Written on the 14 July 2009

The Passion of Gifts

2009-10-12T14:52:00.001+08:00

the passion that's in your heart
is impossible to mask
that glint within your eyes
you cannot hide

no matter how hard you try
no matter how much you cry
people will always see it
whether you like it or not

don't try to hide it
it's not your destiny
be proud and show it
if not for you, for me

i gave you this passion for a reason
to use it and be glad
for a light on a hill can't be hidden
it must shine bright across the land

so smile and be happy
cry and be sad
but don't let emotions control you
for that's not all you have

let your passion show
be proud, but not cocky
for this thing you have, this beacon
will make you happy not sad

this passion you have is amazing
if you would only use it
don't let fear hold you back
but also, don't abuse it

use it to bring people to me
use it to bring yourself joy
for to use it for those reasons
is all i ask of you

Written on the 12 July 2009

Loneliness

2009-10-12T14:50:00.001+08:00

as feelings of lonliness begin to surround me
my heart slows down and my mind sinks
i think of what my God did for me
and my mood begins to rise

the lack of friends that i have beside me
no one to talk to, no one to see
as i just try to smile at the blessings i have
the pain gets too much for me

i cry to my God, my Savior, my King
as worship lifts my soul and i begin to sing
look at all that Christ's done for me
the pain he endured, just to help me

so while i'm kneeling, alone in my room
his spirit washes over me, and i finally feel home
his everlasting peace, tranquility and joy
his tears of pride washes over me

Written on the 8 July 2009

Things May Look Down

2009-10-12T14:47:00.001+08:00

i know things may look bleak right now
and everything just won't turn around
and you may be lonely every night
when just a tiny thing will give you a fright

but things will change one day you know
when the hidden gifts will finally show
you'll see how much you've learnt through this
the experience you've gained and everything else

look at the things you'ved learnt so far
and how much you are yet to learn
you'll have many days, both bad and good
as any person will say you should

one step in your stride, one smile on your face
knowing this will give you more faith
lean into him and you will soon see
that you are where you are meant to be

things may seem down right now
but things will one day change
know this my dear and noble friend
times are closer than they seem

Written on the 19th March 2009

My King

2009-10-12T14:30:00.001+08:00

as blood pulses through my veins
and words scream from my heart
i ask, why did this all happen?
when did this all start?

this miraculous relationship
between my God & I
the words he daily speaks to me
as i look into his eyes

his inspirational quotes
that i don't even know
his love & tender comfort
the feel of his touch i know

how he talks with his unique voice
that i recognise easily
his soft & tender thoughts
his love & company

to comfort when i'm sad
to rejoice when i'm happy
to stop me from doing
something i'd soon regret

to heal me of my pain
& all the suffering i've faced
to bandage the wounds
that i've been asked to face

for he doesn't pressure me
to do one single thing
he just asks in that voice
and i answer 'yes, my king'

written on 14th November 2008

Dreams Fade

2009-08-10T21:11:00.000+08:00

his words continue to shoot at me
but not a nice thing do i hear
why do i hope for such an occasion
for kindness just to be near

but no i must be stupid
for i know i'll never hear that
not a single nice word will leave those lips
not one directed at me, at best

i try not to cry to sleep at night
but tears still trickle with me at best
for i'm a weak selfish girl
who has the maturity of a brat

i'm stupid and hurt and crying
and that's what makes me weak
for i dont ever see him cry
so he believes he's better than me

but aren't we meant to be equal?
should i ever dream of that day?
should i just keep hoping that he'll change?
for some dreams do fade away

so why do i even bother
to keep hoping one day for him
why do i let myself get hurt
when all i know is disappointment

for forever those words will shoot at me
like a dagger right through my heart
forever those words will remain
for although dreams fade, memories do not

Freedom

2009-07-26T13:37:00.000+08:00

i think of how trapped i felt
all these years gone by
how his words used to sting
and used to make me cry

how my heart would lurch
whenever he spoke a word
and how my heart would hope
that he spoke 1 nice word

but now i slowly begin to see
how my God has rescued me
for i can leave and do my thing
without telling him anything

so you may think that that is rude
but it isnt quite the case
i do tell him where i'm going
or whether i'll be out late

but now i feel some kind of freedom
with doing my own thing
for i'm soon 20 and though i see
he may not see that within me

i may still be his little girl
doing what he wishes
but i'm old enough to have a choice
not just to do the dishes

i can leave with my own right
and ignore what he says to me
those disheartening words that he says
that always used to strike me

for i am slowly learning
not to take his words to heart
not to winge of lack of freedom
and not to fall apart

for although he is my dad
and i respect his wishes for me
i am my own woman
and i do deserve to be free

the view

2009-07-14T13:04:00.001+08:00

although there's noise all around me
a feeling of peace settles within
that calm sense of self
is such a privilaged feeling

your heart beating at it's normal pace
if not slower it seems to some
and that calm and happy look in your eyes
can just about explain it all

you smile and look all around you
at the majesty of it all
the beauty your God has created
that scenic view you enjoy

you take a single step
then another towards your goal
you keep looking all around you
and all the wonderous places yo explore

each step that you take
is a whole new different view
each smile that you share
warms 2 hearts, 2 spirits, 2 souls

failure

2009-07-14T13:03:00.000+08:00

i'm sitting alone on the bus
quietly letting tears trickle down my face
i know in my mind i've failed
the one issue my heart can't face

it makes me feel like a failure
another thing that i've done wrong
in the beginning i knew i couldn't do this
cept now i have the proof

i feel their eyes glaring at me
but not a person in sight is looking
it doesn't stop the disapproval i feel
or the feeling my heart has lost

so as i look out that bus window
i cry but nobody hears
i try to think of things done right
and attempt to combat my fears

with no joy within my sights
and no hope seen in my future
i let out a silent prayer
praying that you'll be with me

to guide my way
and to help me realise
i don't see the light
i became it

Do You Hear God?

2009-06-09T17:15:00.000+08:00

I wake up every morning
to his small still voice
calling me to rise
and to suddenly make the choice

should I get up
and talk to him
or lay in bed
and do the same

so I get up out of bed
to experience this new day
and I begin to smile
as he talks to me

i asked my pastor
one cold day
do you hear God
and guess what he said

he said he listens
to nothing but silence
that God
doesn't talk to him

I don't find that that's the case
I think God talks to him
its just he doesn't recognise
his small still voice

So i ask you this day
do you hear God
and what he says
to you each day

do you give him the time
from your busy lives
and slowly
begin to pray

just take a moment
or an hour
and listen
to what he says

for many don't realise
that he's right near you
try to listen
to what he says

it's worth it you see
for he's close to me
my sweet
dear God above

so give him the time
listen so close
and just try to hear him
it's worth it

Answer to Prayer

2009-06-07T18:40:00.002+08:00

you came into my life
as an answer to my pray
you've helped me so much so far
and yet we've only just met

the potential this relationship
is astounding in my eyes
as you help me everyday
in this everyday life

the compassion that you hold
is remarkable you see
you haven't run or hid
when i have told you different things

you help me to accept myself
and move forward everyday
you smile, and you comfort
and you help to lead the way

and although it's only recent
you've convinced me of so much
you've boosted my confidence
knowing i don't need that crutch

and while doing all this
you've still stuck true to you
still prioritising what's important
for this relationship is true

so thank you for your time
your encouragement and esteem
for although i'd survive without you
life's better now that you're here

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To Trish, you are an amazing person, although we only just met, you have influenced me so much, you've helped me make some great decisions. You are an awesome woman of Christ, an inspiration, whom I already love dearly, as my own sister, and friend, you really are an answer to my prayers.

Flying Solo

2009-05-31T15:25:00.001+08:00

people wish a solo life
a life of solitude
but people long for companionship
life with a good friend, or 2

all my life i've hurt
by people drifting away
cause i want those friends to close to me
and not to move away

there was my dear sam
for a short while i did love
but i got too close
and we drifted apart

there was my friend sarah
we grew up through the years
got too close, drifted apart
through many unshed tears

then there was God, my one and only
he got close, and never left
although i drifted far from him
he always stayed beside my bed

then there was Jo, my true best friend
who stuck by me, thick and thin
she broke through my brick wall
and then knocked and waited by the door

so although we wish for a life
of lonely solitude
it's never what we need
not to be rude

so break those walls, and let someone in
whether it be friend or foe
you can't be alone forever
for that is not the way to go

Pain and Sadness, Hope and Joy

2009-05-28T21:15:00.001+08:00

the empty look within my eyes
can say 1000 words
of pain and sadness, regret and hurt
more pain than any burns

the pain thats in my mind
of all the words he's said
the memories and the sadness
and all of my regrets

to hear each word he says to me
as i continue to hope
that a single word that he might say
might help me to cope

the daggers he seems to strike through my chest
the words that linger in my mind
i wish that there was someone who could
ease my pain filled mind

but i begin to think that all my hopes
might come and still my mind
as i think of all God's done for me
and what he continues to do

so as i smile, just a crack
i think that what i ask
peace of mind, and will of heart
is proven through his eyes

he calms my spirit, eases my soul
and helps me to achieve
for he will push me to my limits
and gently hold me

so i smile as he talks to me
i laugh when there is rain
i help when i possibly can
and i see this guided way

Victims

2009-05-28T20:38:00.002+08:00

i think of all the victims
those who've been abused
the hearts seperate from their lives
the story behind each bruise

their lack of will to live
is evident through their stance
and all you really want to do
is pick them up and dance

just to see the pain
in each victims eyes
to see all the sorrow
through each white lie

to feel what they are going through
but that you made a choice
to not let pain control you
to show you have a voice

so although all this is hard
step forward each new day
for all you need is love
and that will you need to pray

Music

2009-05-18T17:00:00.002+08:00

Music's in my spirit
It's in my soul
It's in my heart
It makes me whole

An empty feeling
That dwells inside
Is filled with music
It doesn't hide

The joy it brings
New each day
Urges me to sing
And sometimes to pray

To dance in the kitchen
Sing in my room
Worship at church
Which brings me home

Music all around
Thoughts in many minds
Passion in many souls
Voices left behind

Actions speak louder than words
To sing but not be heard
To dance and not be seen
Is many's most feared dream

God vs Satan

2009-05-18T16:57:00.000+08:00

the pain i cause satan
is a positive you see
for he hurts others
others including me

the pain that he causes
is full on and intense
for he hurts friends
and makes them upset

he lies and deceives
makes us all cry and weep
but God can change all that
for he lives inside me

We can cause satan pain
by believing in God
doing what God asks
rather than doing what satan tells

for satan wants all sadness
while God wants all good
and although life has both
following God is what we should

for God can make us happy
while satan causes pain
for you can't have a rainbow
without any rain

Martin Luther King Jr.

2009-05-17T14:45:00.001+08:00

Martin Luther King Jr
said some years ago
that faith is taking the first step
when you can't see the whole staircase

it made me begin to think
of experiences when i have done this
and of an email i sent recently
where i quoted just this

how he was so inspirational
saying one day there'll be black leadership
in the land named america
his prediction came true

for Barack Obama
is the man who took the place
inplace of George Bush
No offense to you mate

for Martin Luther King
travelled round the country
speaking of this prophesy
before he died

how proud would he be
to see his prediction come true
for that prophesy was God
speaking to me and you

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inspired by the quote:
Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase.
Quoted from Martin Luther King Junior. May he rest in peace

God

2009-05-12T19:10:00.000+08:00

you know my every thought
every hair upon my head
every dream that i desire
every word that is said

you know each star by name
and it's location too
you know when it will die
and when it becomes new

you see each child's future
and the dreams that they shall have
their hearts and their spirits
their smiles and their laughs

you love each one of us dearly
for you died upon that cross
upon that hill in Calvary
although many lives are lost

you give each gifts and talents
the sunrise and sunset
the smile lighting each person's cheeks
and each of their regrets

you bring the summer and the winter
the autumn and the spring
your neverending mercies
that are new with each morning

you hold the hope of our salvation
the grace of a willing heart
the hands that hold our burdens
and the heart that we all love

you help us day by day
and provide all that we need
you are that shoulder to cry on
and that healing hand

you're there when we need you
and you're there when we don't
you're supportive and caring
even when we're not

you smile when we're happy
and are sad when we're not
you capture every tear
and long for each heart lost

you're forgiving and you're gracious
there is always a second chance
for you hold each child in your hands
with your unconditional love

you help us through our struggles
and push us to achieve
everything we're called to be
and everything we need

you celebrate our success
and pick us up when we fall
you help us take those baby steps
when we first learn to crawl

you hold our hands through all our life
and on our dying grave
you love each of us so dearly
even when we misbehave

you're wisdom and you're knowledge
are great assets that you provide
those precious words of wisdom
and that knowledge of everylasting life

you're amazing and you're beautiful
that father from above
that person who we can go to
when we need a hand to strive

so i end in saying this
God is one and only
no one can replace him
and he can never die

I Wish That I Could Scream

2009-05-12T18:29:00.000+08:00

they think these words will help me
when all they cause is pain
they sting my heart and hurt my soul
and drench me in the rain

their words sting like a pitchfork
being stabbed into my back
lost cause and no hope
are just some examples at hand

the sadness overwhelms me
the pain and the grief
the words that he shoots at me
make me cry and weep

he may not see this now
my lack of self esteem
when all i wish that i could do
i wish that i could scream

Kids

2009-05-11T07:21:00.001+08:00

As the passion rises in me
I see the reason i began
the reason i made this choice
to become the person that i am

to see those kids having fun
enjoying life with blessings still to come
to see the smiles on their faces
knowing hearts are already won

knowing God did all this
makes me proud to this day
that i know him so intimately
as we talk everyday

to see him working in those kids
makes me happy that i'm there
witnessing tranformations
with joy still in the air

such a great innocence
makes kids be happy and carefree
with no worries of the world
that burden you and me

God said in a verse i don't remember
he called the kids to him
saying that they are just as important
as anyone else he's seen

so don't neglect those children
because they're important to God
everyone is equal
everyone's heart can be won

Death of a Friend

2009-04-13T21:27:00.003+08:00

A good old friend died today
And not a word that I could say
Would bring her back, make her live
Destroy diseases that she had

But I know she's in a better place
With God above looking at her face
All the good works that she has done
And all the lives that her heart has won

She’s earned her crown, well and truly
Found her place with the one who's holy
So as I cry for the loss I feel
I know that one day, it will all heal

I hope she's happy with the work she's done
For she's earned her place with the holy one
She deserves every smile that's brought her way
Knowing I’ll see her again some day

Knowing she's watching over me
With a smile and a laugh that brings me glee
I’m glad that all her suffering's gone
And that she finally feels at home

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About 8:15 tonight, I got a phone call, I got the news that a lady I had grown up with, a lady that was like a grandma to me, held me as a child, visited randomly and gave me advice when I needed it, well, that she had died, I cried a whole lot in the lounge, then went to my room and cried a whole lot more, then I wrote this, i dried my eyes, then went and told everyone, crying between each, it really shook me, but I'm really glad I have God and my best friend Jo beside me, helping me, showing encouragement and empathy during this difficult time, I have no idea what I'm going to be like during the funeral, but I'll get through it, and if necessary, I'll email my lecturers if the funeral is next Monday, it will be hard, but even I know hard times only make us stronger

Kids vs Worship

2009-04-06T19:11:00.002+08:00

my heart begins to race
as i think of what to say
how do i explain
of that one trying day

what words do i express
to explain the decision i made
how do i stop crying
when i talk to her that way

as the emotions run high
and tears fall from my eyes
fear and worry
run through my veins

but none the less i told her
and i don't regret it too
because she deserved to know
so she'd quit asking me to

it was one way to stop
the most humane way
to explain to her my story
of how i took that day

the fear i had in saying
and all the compliments she gave
made me glad i told her
and the choice that i made

choosing kids over worship
was the hardest thing i've done
but i'm glad that i made it
for it was better in that long run

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for a couple of weeks now, Carol has asked me twice to come back to the worship team, so the first time, i sent her a facebook message, thinking she'd get, read it and reply, so yesterday i asked her why she hadn't been on facebook recently, she'd decided to change companies, understandable, optus is crap, so she'd never read my message, later that day, she was standing next to me in kids church, we were singing with the kids, when we sat down, she said i should join the worship team, i didn't answer, rude i know, but i didn't know how to answer that. I thought about it all afternoon, and asked Jo whether i should call her and explain, because she did deserve to know, so i did, no answer, checked the messages, called again, i got an answer, my heart was racing, i was wondering, what would i say, how would i explain it, so i told her of the choice i had to make, while craig was around, she understood, and was glad i chose kids over worship.
Seeing how much the worship team has changed since i made that choice, i believe whole heartedly that i made the right choice.

Thank you Carol for inspiring this poem for me, you are a great friend and i hope one day you'll read it

Everyday I Wake

2009-04-06T19:02:00.002+08:00

In a movie I remember
One thing sticks in my mind
That life is an occasion
Of which I should rise

Each day is a miracle
Each child is unique
Each second should be special
Though things may look bleak

The hope we find each day
As we wake each morning
To thank God that I woke
Even though I am yawning

Each tear rolls down my cheek
Each beat my heart makes
I thank my God for each
For everyday I wake

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So i was in class, i've been sick all day with a cold, stayed off milk all day, perhaps tomorrow too, we'll see, but i could not concentrate, what-so-ever, all i seemed to do was take vital notes and draw and colour in the hand outs, so i decided, i should do something productive.
I'd had this quote in mind for a couple of days now "Life is an occasion, rise to it" featured in Mr Magorium's Wonder Emporium, the movie, and so that quote, inspired this poem.

Black Saturday

2009-03-14T18:02:00.000+09:00

as fire engulfs their homes
and everything they held dear
who do they turn to
solely out of fear?

as hope slowly leaves their eyes
their hearts become cold and dark
who do they turn to
to bring them back to light?

as bodies are found dead in their tracks
and things brought through the ashes
who do they turn to
doubting things will be ok?

as smoke begins to surround them
and they begin to cry
who do they turn to
to help them through this challenge?

as strangers stand by and listen
to stories told by the survivors
who do they turn to
when they begin to hope?

as families are brought back together
and friends hold one another
who do they thank
when there's tears of joy?

as kids are found alive and kicking
and parents hold them tightly so
who do they thank
for bringing hope to their eyes?

where is God in all of this?
he's in the relief in parents eyes
he's in the joy of the children
and he's in the hearts of the firefighters

he's in the laughter and tears
he's in the comfort of many fears
he's in the volunteers and donations
and he's in the minds of the survivors

To Find You

2009-03-14T13:00:00.001+09:00

I look at people around me
and see the light within their eyes
I see the potential they may have
if they could just see your eyes

to see the things they could do
if they just realised they needed you
to see the wonderous things
that you so often bring

for them to feel within their hearts
that you're the reason this world did start
to know that if they only found you
they could do whatever with you

to know that many may miss out
on seeing the potential that they have
flushes me with such sadness
but knowing you can fix that

you can show them what they can do
if they only began to believe in you
you can teach them so many lessons
by giving challenges for them to face

but with you by their side
anything is possible
with you by their side
all their dreams can come true

One You

2009-03-14T00:20:00.002+09:00

You are heaven's Halley's comet
you're unique in every way
the way you smile, the way you laugh
the way you celebrate each day

each day that you are living
is a blessing to this earth
to the people that surround you
to the help that you provide

there will always be one you
not three or four or two
no five or six or seven
not even up in heaven

this world that we live in
you bring something different
for if you didn't bring it
name one person who could

for there is just one you
one person so unique
no copy and no duplicate
no twins, triplets, or quads

the things you bring to the table
can not be replaced
no one can do your task
no one can take your place

there is just one you
one you to live your life
one you to do your task
one you to touch a life

one you to fit your shoes
one you to walk your path
one you to make your friends
one you for people to ask

So i say one last thing
your gifts and your achievements
would never be the same
if it weren't for you

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So i was inspired by my daily devotional, and yes i know it's late, but i just couldn't stop myself! i just couldn't, i had to write it, because so many people out there, me being one of them, feel unnoticed and unappreciated, and i had to say something, you should never feel that way, who is going to fill your shoes? who's going to take your place in this world? no one, sure someone else will be hired for your job, but no one is going to do it like you do, no one, whether you think that or not, take it from someone who goes unappreciated and feels unloved all the time, who goes unnoticed, who just does her job and thinks nobody notices her. I know from experience, so take it from me, you're not unnoticed, you're appreciated by someone, whether you realise it or not, when you go, you will be missed.

Friendship for Life

2009-03-13T23:07:00.000+09:00

My cheeks hurt from smiling
And laughing so hard
No tears stain my cheeks
No task feels too hard

For I feel this within
With God right beside me
I can do anything
With my friends behind me

That softening touch
Of people around me
Knowing God cares
For he lives inside me

Giving me friends
Who make life worth it
But giving challenges
To make learning for life

Learning one thing
Each day is needed
To make each day different
To feel you've succeeded

To have experiences each day
That lead you through life
That show you the difference
Between wrong and right

To have friends surround you
With smiles on their faces
Knowing they'll stick by you
Whatever the mistake is

Knowing that God
Who shows me much grace
Will continue to love me
With that smile on his face

To always be proud
Of what I’ve achieved
The lessons I’ve learned
And the help I’ve received

To give me the friends
That make my life bright
But give me the hope
That one day I’ll see the light

To show me that life
Is always worth living
Through the challenges I face
And the mistakes that I make

To show me that friends
Will always be behind me
To help me to learn
Something new each day

To lift me up when I need
To keep my feet on the ground
To show me the good things
When life gets me down

To get me to smile
When all I see is tears
To give me that push
That helps to rid my fears

To know that I’m here
If they ever need to talk
To help them through troubles
Or just simply to help

To stick by their side
Through the thick and the thin
To be the friend that stays
And doesn't desert them

To be that stranger
Who just smiles at you
Or to just be that person
Who you say hello to

To help when you need it
To find ways to get through
To face each day together
Through everything you do

To be that shoulder to cry on
That listening ear
That helping hand
That friend who's always there

To face those challenges together
Or apart can be hard
But a task shared
Is a task halved

To be there when you need me
To do whatever to help
To laugh or to cry
With no one asking why

So I end saying this
Don't take life for granted
Each day is unique
Each person is wanted

Unnoticeable Pain

2009-03-12T21:24:00.000+09:00

I sit here in my chair
with people all around me
no one sees the tears i cry
or the pain i hold inside me

why don't they seem to see
that words do make a difference
that tiny words can hurt
unnoticeable through my mask

so i sit here in my chair
with tears rolling down my face
words running through my head
words of hurt, not happiness

Seasonal Poem

2009-03-10T21:09:00.003+09:00

May this *Christmas season
Bring you closer to God and me
May our friendship grow
To more than either of us expected to see

May you grow much closer
To God, the Lord above
and may you see the vibrance
of his everlasting love

May you come to realise
What life has in store for you
And may you be an inspiration
To all who get to know you

May the joy you spread
Bring smiles to every face
And may all people see
The lengths of God's everlasting grace

May you simply realise
How much God would do for you
And may you come to know
How precious and beautiful you are to him

* Christmas can be changed for other seasons, such as, Winter, Spring, Summer, Autumn, Easter, Birthday, etc.

One Moment

2009-01-24T00:27:00.002+09:00

Tranquility and Serenity
overwhelm me from within
Peace and Harmony
engulf me for a moment

for me to feel this moment
means i'm not alone
it's like this perfect life
it's like that heavenly moment

for in that single moment
it feels like angels are near
either that or fairies
invisible, but clear

to feel for one still moment
that things will be ok
to hear the music around me
to feel serenity within

to just be for one single moment
with no ridicule or disrespect
to be calm, but yet to be joyful
to feel special, but yet, the same

Dreams and Fantasies

2008-12-19T23:50:00.000+09:00

i cry myself to sleep each night
hoping this is a nightmare
that when i wake, for my sake
that life is so much different

that i may have a father
who accepts me so much more
that i may have a life
where i won't cry tears of hurt

that life is a blessing
and everything is hand made
sculptured into what
i wish was good things

but i guess that won't happen
cause this is all too real
that when i wake each morning
all i can think is sadness

to cry myself to sleep each night
to wish for something different
to hope for a father who accepts me
i guess my dreams are just fantasies

Challenges

2008-10-31T21:40:00.000+09:00

challenges face us everyday
every situation, every way
we face them & push to get through
as everyday we have to do

they teach us to grow
they help us to know
they push us to finish
what we first started

they shape us to be
who we're called to be
the challenges we face
the beautiful grace

the guiding hand
the confident stance
the encouraging voice
pushing us to make the choice

to push through those challenges
or to be coward and hide
when first shaping us
begins to change us

so push through those challenges
God wouldn't give you what you can't face
know that he guides you
with his everylasting grace

Destiny

2008-10-31T21:39:00.000+09:00

life has it's troubles
it's pain & it's loss
but life has it's joy
it's faith & it's cost

when life hands you lemons
it says to make lemonade
when life can be sour
it can also be sweet

God told me one day
that our destiny is destined
we're born with a heart
a soul & a friend

a mentor, a spirit
a shoulder to cry on
a future to look to
a future to seek

so take your destiny
grasp it & hold it
for we don't choose it
it is chosen for us

the decisions we make
the path that we take
the pain & loss
the tears on that cross

destiny is destined
from beginning to end
we must start to continue
we must continue to end

the destination is chosen
the path is defined
there's so many pathways
each one uniquely designed

so the end is chosen
the path that we take
we can't choose our destiny
it is God's to make

If God Were To Write You A Letter

2008-09-29T15:09:00.004+08:00

If God were to write you a letter
What do you think it would say?
Would it say "Good & faithful servant
I'm glad you've chosen to obey"?

What about, "Could you do this better?
Perhaps put more thought into this?"
Maybe, "Why did you do that?
When I asked you to do this"

If God were to write you a letter
What do you think it would say?
I think it would say "I love you,
I'm glad you've chosen My way"

I think it would say "I care,
You mean the world to me
Why else would I have died
On that cross at Calvary?"

If God were to write you a letter
What do you think it would say?
"I'm glad you are my child,
Even though you disobey"

"I'm glad you made the choice
To come & follow me,
I'm glad you decided to become my disciple,
For I love you now & for eternity"

God

2008-08-21T22:57:00.004+08:00

you say to me "i love you"
you say to me "i care"
you stand by me every minute
of every single day

you hold me in your arms
as i cry fountains of tears
you wrap your arms around me
and get rid of all my fears

you comfort me when i'm upset
you encourage when i dare
you push me to my limits
when i'm pulling out my hair

you tell me to reach higher
that i'll get there someday
that i'll be who he wants me to be
can't say what, can't say where

you push me to try my hardest
you push me to excel
you say "the skies the limit"
that there's no way i'll go to hell

you hold me in your arms
as i drift off to sleep
knowing i'll wake up soon after
with him saying "you'll keep"

Grey

2008-07-21T22:46:00.001+08:00

poison runs down his throat
as i sit shaking in my chair
insults start hurling
out into mid air

i begin to think
how this guy could be my dad
the kind, good natured guy
who i once had

i cry inside my heart
as he yells & abuses me
but tonight is nothing different
to what i seem to always see

he thinks that i can take it
but he hasn't seen me cry
as i crawl into a ball
sit in a corner & cry

each word that is hurled at me
strikes a knife through my heart
this well mannered, decent guy
who in my heart, i love

but everyday i take it
i get up everyday
to face the world i live in
in every shade of grey

Diviness of Worship

2008-07-09T15:30:00.001+08:00

The diviness of worship
can only be felt
it has to be given
it cannot be dealt

to feel his divine touch
when he touches your heart
sends tingles through your body
every single part

if that doesn't say something
i don't know what does
for him to touch you
means he loves every part

that overwhelming peace
you feel when he's near
doesn't that show that he's real
to feel him that near

when you sing out to him
he treasures every word
every sound that you make
has to be heard

for we're part of one body
each person a different role
you could be a nail
you could be a toe

but every single part
has a specific role
& whenever one part sings
he hears every word

Growing

2008-06-11T16:18:00.000+08:00

Faith that’s within
Hope in your heart
Grace from the King
Is what was earth’s start

He created this world
And brought life to this earth
For he wanted something
Something to birth

He grew all the plants
The love in our hearts
The grace that he planted
The faith that will last

He cradled us as babies
He made us, everyone
He moulded what we’d be like
Our futures & our pasts

He gave us a guide
And people to guide us
Taking each step
Will never be an easy task

He grew us & helped us
With every single step
Shaping the perfect diamonds
In a variety of ways

He challenges us & pushes us
In every single way
He tries to push our limits
And often succeeds

He’s the one we turn to
When we are sad or upset
He’s the one who helps us
With every single step

A Blessing In Disguise

2008-05-25T16:28:00.003+08:00

Peace sets in around me
Joy & love surround
Harmony & grace engulf me
As happiness overwhelms

A blessing in disguise
Makes me cry & weep
But this blessing in disguise
Helps me to sleep

For that one tragic moment
That start of that tragic night
The night of all those emails
Judgmental & full of pain

A week what felt like an eternity
A day that felt like a year
A moment where all i felt
Was pure & honest . . . fear

What would i do without him
I couldn't see without
That moment of fear
Also brought doubt

But i look back & see
A blessing in disguise
Surrounded by sadness & regret
Where all i said was 'what did i do wrong?'

But now i look back & see
A blessing in disguise
For i answer my own question
It is his fault, not mine

For that one single moment
The shedding of many tears
That one single moment
When all i felt was fear

It was his decision
To take that fatal act
To destroy my self-esteem
To lie to me like that

The hurtful words he said to me
All the pain it brought
But now all i see
Is a blessing in disguise

Death 2

2008-04-24T15:27:00.002+08:00

Death is an untimely loss
Of someone you hold near
While people say "You did this God!
You took him from me here!"

But death is like Christ's resurrection
He will rise again
Except not down here, on this earth
But up there, with God, in heaven

We blame the one who saved us
When he has saved us all
For if it wasn't for Christs passing
We would all be lost in hell

But God wouldn't let that happen
No matter all the wrong we do
For we too will be resurrected
For our destination is heaven too

Joanne

2008-02-17T13:34:00.003+09:00

Best Friend, mentor, sister
three names that describe her
love, compassion, honesty
three words that describe her

you say to me, i love you
at first i never believed it
you say to me, i care about you
at first i never saw it

you call me your best friend
& now i say, i believe it
you call me your sister
& now i say, you're mine too

you are such an inspiration
someone i look upto
my best friend & my sister
through everything i've done

i've lied to you & you forgave me
no second thought about it
i've hurt others, including you
but you're still there for me

your image is that of Jesus
even though you are not him
if a mirror only showed your spirit
i believe you would be twins

you're my best friend & my mentor
the person i look upto most
you're my sister, whom i cherish
like no one else on earth

you care & love me dearly
you say you always have time for me
you mean the world to me
one hundred times over

you've been there
through thick & thin
blood & water
through everything

thank you for everything
all you've helped me with
to you i say, i love you
my mentor, my best friend

as by the title i presume you know who it's about, Jo, you mean so much to me, everything you've helped me with, will remain in my heart for a lifetime, maybe longer, thanks jo, you truly are a woman of God & an inspiration

A Christmas Poem

2007-12-02T16:26:00.000+09:00

As Christmas comes
And Christmas goes
With all the presents
Gifts and snow

Time with family
Friends and pets
Time at church
Holidays & houses

Do you know?
When it all began?
Do you know?
The reason that he came?

For to earth he came
A saviour and a friend
A brand new baby born
In a barn in Bethlehem

Born to mother Mary
As the Son of God
For once they travelled from Nazareth
For behold a baby born

To a shed three wise men came
To a baby born that day
Bearing frankincense, myrrh and gold
In mother’s arms the baby held

To many it seems like nothing
December 25th
But to some it stands for something
Behind all the gifts

For God was sent to earth
Not just to be here
But to help us in our lives
Though many do deceive him

He came to earth as a baby
Yes all the dirty nappies
All the pain it caused
Just to have that baby boy

But the one thought in his mind
Before the time had come
Wasn’t why he was doing this
Wasn’t why should he bother

I think along the lines
It was that he’s coming to save us all
That love, forgiveness & help
Was the reason he chose to come

A human with no sin
No hurt & no betrayal
A human pure as can be
Born in Bethlehem that day

Imagine the joy
That was on Mary’s face
When she held that baby boy
On that one day

Imagine the anticipation
And excitement from within
To bear God’s own son
To hold him in her arms

People say, what’s this
What’s this to do with Christmas?
Well it’s the reason it all began
What’s the reason that he did this?

No, Christmas isn’t Santa Claus
It isn’t just for presents
It’s to celebrate the birth of Jesus
On December 25th

It isn’t for the lollies
It isn’t even for family
It’s for God’s own Son
For God himself is Christmas

I'm Sorry

2007-11-09T18:35:00.000+09:00

how come when things hurt
they hurt more than anything
but when we say one hurtful thing
you think nothing of it

the tears that run down my cheek
the fear that strikes through my heart
the pain that cries out of me
when i'm feeling all alone

how come when i do something
all eyes look at me
but if anyone else was to do it
they wouldnt say a thing

the tears that weep from my eyes
the fear that runs through my veins
the pain that cries out of me
when i'm feeling all alone

how come just one word
one tiny little phrase
can bring your world crashing down
in a terrible array

the tears that streak my face
the fear of what is to come
the pain that cries out of me
when i'm feeling all alone

how come things are said
yet they are never meant
so now, i say, i'm sorry
for the hurtful things i've said

the tears the stain my pillow
the fear of the unknown
the pain that cries out of me
when i'm feeling all alone

so please, i say, forgive me
for i didn't mean what i said
so please, just please, forgive me
as i am filled with so much upset

the tears that run down my cheek
the fear that strikes through my heart
the pain that cries out of me
now i feel, again, alone

Death

2007-10-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

death is such a tragic loss
to anyone involved
involved in life, in cases love
till one day you grow old

a loss to whom knew the guy
whatever gender it was
a loss to those who travelled by
& knew the one who's gone

to the people who knew
the person who's deceased
may you remember the memories
between the person & yourself

so i'm sorry for your loss
but memories never fade
they become the comfort
from the person who is dead

but most of all remember this
the person's a part of you
you found & you knew
and that's all that matters

the fact that you knew
the one who is now gone
but remember it's not impossible
to now live on

hugs to those who knew
the person who's now gone
for you now have memories
more than many know

take comfort that you knew
the person who is gone
instead of not knowing
that person at all

but just this one last thought
take comfort in God above
for he's the source of comfort
to those who are not gone

just take joy in your heart
from the memories that you hold
talk to God above
instead of being bold

for he's the one who made
every single one
he's the one to turn to
now that the person is gone

In devotion to my friends husband, you may never read this, even though i wish you do, but please, never forget that God will never leave you

Sam

2007-10-23T21:37:00.000+08:00

the pain too much to bear
yet why am i so scared
i'm split from whole to half
it hurts to be apart

as tears stain my pillow
and spill down my cheeks
i remember the memories
of what was once you & me

you hurt me can't you see that
you say you need time alone
well its my turn you see
can't you just leave me alone?

you were my first
expect some rejection
because you said to me
we were meant to be

was that all just lies?
you said that you loved me
you said that you would never hurt me
well today you lied to me

cause you hurt me so much
doing what you did
you hurt my heart, my soul
for that takes more than others

more forgiveness, more patience
more thought & time
so just leave me alone
you're no longer mine

i want to swear at you
but know that i must not
because i don't want to hurt you
not with all those words

i loved you cant you see that?
i thought you loved me back
now i'm questioning that
whether anything you said was true

so in return, i wont say anything
silence is a killer
not for a while anyway
not to you or anyone

i hope you see the hurt
that you caused me on this day
for i refuse to talk
especially to you, anyway

The Key To My Heart

2007-10-06T23:54:00.000+08:00

The key to my heart
belongs to you
the door to my heart
opens to you

The passions i have
of which you gave me
The reason you died
was just to save me

The throne in my heart
where i used to sit
Has now been accustomed
for there you sit

The crown that is given
to every one of us
Is given by you
For you i trust

The kiss on my cheek
that is given by you
brings tears to my eyes
of joy, not sorrow

The way you talk
is glorious & powerful
yet calm & helpful
when we need it most

The way you are willing
to sit & listen
to listen to me
To shed a tear or many

The way you saved me
not selfish or spoilt
you alone are Saviour
King, almighty

The way you first touched me
that one night & many more
The way you helped me
For that's who you are

The key to my heart
belongs to you alone
for you i trust
i trust you as home

Your warmth around me
From you, you alone
is you & i know it
For you alone are home

You, my God
Glorious, all powerful
yet gentle & kind
The key to my heart

The Story:
I was sitting, with my new choir cd playing, with a milo, with marshmellows, & 2 tim tams, and God gave me a title, the first line "The Key To My Heart" i finished cutting up my new 3D flower stickers & jumped on my computer & typed it, straight into notepad, i was at peace, relaxed, just listening, sipping at my milo, like the candle time i've been having, but without the candle, just, sitting, in God's presence, listening, calm, happy, that's all i was doing.
The poem itself, just came, when i typed that first line, i couldn't stop, it basically describes Jesus, who he is, what he does, not everything he does, or everything he is, but some things that stand out to me, along with king and saviour, who he is to me, in a nut shell.

Worthy

2007-09-19T23:40:00.000+08:00

if giving up is giving in
then i won't do it
if giving in is giving him
the victory, i won't do it

if what you say on this day
is just lies & deceit
if what you say this very day
in giving him the glory

i will not listen to what you say
because he doesn't deserve the praise
he deserves nothing more
than the lies & the backs turned away

if you just see what i see
in Jesus Christ our lord
truth & honesty, glory & praise
then who's to say who is worthy

worthy of what may i ask
worthy of sin & deceit
that is all satan is worthy of
not the praise people give him

if you could just see the pain he has caused
the tears in gods eyes as people turn from the lord
if you could just see the joy in our lives
caused by the guy who lives in the skies

if we could see what heaven has for us
the gold in the paths, the joy in his eyes
if we could just see the pain in satans eyes
that is one thing that he can disguise

for satan isn't worth the trouble
he isn't worth the pain
he isn't worth the suffering
of every type of rain

for god is worth every minute
of every single day
he's worth so much more
more than life can say

he's worth the joy & satisfaction
that happiness brings his way
for he alone is worthy
on this very day

Heavens High

2007-09-15T12:32:00.000+08:00

Heavens high is higher
Than what anyone can imagine
It's higher than the trees, birds & clouds
Higher than you & me

Higher than the joy
That's felt from satisfaction
Higher than the shine
That's brought from pregnancy

It's higher than the sun
The moon and the stars
Higher than the smile
That's brought from ones we love

It's higher than the joy
From that very first commitment
Higher than singing
Praises unto thee

No one can experience
The joy of heavens high
Cept for those in heaven
That is way above the sky

No one knows what it's like
To experience heavens high
To meet him in person
To stay with him, never die

For that is what it is
To experience heavens high
Nothing like drugs or alcohol
It's higher than the sky

For heavens high is higher
Than anything we can see
Anything we can feel
Not even you & me

For heavens high is different
It's what we seem to dream of
Forever in his arms
Serving the one called Jesus

How Come

2007-07-28T14:11:00.000+08:00

how come it hurts so much
to scream, but never to again touch
to cry, but never shed a tear
to hurt, but always fear

how come it hurts to smile
to grin, but never see it
to laugh, but never hear it
to express, but never mean it

how come each night
i cry & fight
scream & hurt
why every night

i try so hard
to paste a smile
sure never meaning it
but so people see it

i've longed to write a poem like this
for longer than most people see
for feelings just dwell & muster inside
till one day you express what you really feel

See

2007-07-20T13:22:00.000+08:00

I don't know why
I seem cry
And look to you
And just ask why

I just don't see
What you see in me
My past & my future
The me, people don't see

I ask you now
Why and how
Why you bother
And how you see

My future is bright
You always say
My past is a wreck
More than you may

You always say
When I cry & scream
What's wrong my girl
What don't you see

My answer to that
Is I am not you
I don't see my potential
Like many seem to

I don't see what makes me
Worth so much to you
I don't see what you see
The smiles I wish to show you

I don't see my potential
But I know that it exists
But I do see why you died
Just to set me free

I do see my past
And what happened to me then
I do see you
In almost everything I do

I do see the smiles
You give me everyday
I do feel the hugs
That warm me on this day

So I say to you now
Thank you my Dad
Thank you for bothering
And seeing the potential I have

To Morayo

2007-07-04T12:36:00.000+08:00

Don't be discouraged
By what you feel
Who you see
And what seems real

Just be joyful
With what you know
Who you live for
And what he knows

And I say to you now
He cares for you
He loves you
He listens to you

Be motivated in
What is to come
The joy & the smiles
When everything's done

Be what God
Wants you to be
Don't care what they think
Don't care what you see

Cause all that matters
Is what you are
Who you are
And you believe

It may seem dark
The deeper you get
The more you try
The more you forget

But I tell you this now
Turn back now
Cause he will show you
The light & his trust

He has faith in you
Whether you like it or not
He believes you can
Forget all the rot

The faith you have
Will never be
A waste of time
Cause it's part of thee

The faith you have
Belongs to him
Cause it's what he gave you
To connect you to him

The trust & the joy
That fills his eyes
When he looks at you
With love in his eyes

He cares for you
Whether you like it or not
It may seem he's not there
But he hasn't forgotten

Someone once said
It's not about me
It's about who is lord
And who is king

So if you focus on him
No matter what they say
You'll know it's not about you
And that you'll be with him one day

morayo, i know it seems hard now, but you will get through, you're faith is amazing, that's what i love about you, your kind nature, you understand when i'm in a bad mood & always offer to listen, that i love, never lose what you have, don't care what others say, you have god ray, you have him & he is never letting go of you, your faith isn't a waste of time, i thought that once too & look where i am now, never think that, cause satans trying to get at you, you are a threat morayo, satan thinks, if he gets you down early, he will win you over, don't let him ray, don't let him even try, cause he's not worth the trouble, the faith & the trust you have is amazing & you deserve it, you earnt it girl, you are amazing, whether you like it or not, you are, smile & never lose faith in the treasures God, our Lord, has for you & what your life will bring

Darkness

2007-06-26T16:57:00.000+08:00

i stare into darkness
and all that i see
is you hugging me
and caring

i stare into light
and all that i see
is you holding me
and sharing

i look into you
and all that i see
is love, kindness
and grace

but all i wish
for you to do
is forever
embrace me

well, i know people like it when i explain my poems, so i will, with this one anyway, well, here's the story, my mum swore at me, then i went out the front & literally fell into my dads arms & told him, then he left to go over a friends place, & so i went into my room, didn't turn the light on, turned the TV on & that was the only light, even though i wasn't staring at it, i was looking into the darkness behind my bed, thats what inspired me, the darkness & the picture i always seem to get when i'm upset, where i'm in a dark place, just me & what i believe Christ looks like, & i'm crying on his shoulder, & he's hugging me, telling me it's ok, thats what inspired this poem, that's what made me write this

Let Go

2007-06-23T16:33:00.000+08:00

i get these dreams
every night
i know where they come from
while he's out of sight

satan sends me these
every single night
they may still scare me
but he's out of sight

he thinks he can control
but i say this to you now
he has no control over me
not here, not ever, not now

so i say this to you, satan
get your claws off of me
you won't rid this world of me
not that easily

i say this to you, satan
Christ has set me free
no matter what you put against me
i say this, let go of me

you don't deserve to have me
nor will you ever
you're not worth the trouble
on which you do endeavor

you put effort in your plans
but they always back fire
i know who you are
and why you do endeavor

you think it is easy
to get control of me
but with Christ by my side
your plans, will never succeed

so i say this to you, satan
back off away from me
you are not worth the trouble
so let go of me

you will never have me
you're a creep full of pain
you're cruel & mean & nasty
you think you can reign

but i say this to you, satan
god rules this earth
whether you like it or not
is not my concern at all

so i don't see why you bother
to try & conquer this earth
cause the battle is already won
not by you, but someone who's earnt it

A Dream

2007-06-23T12:32:00.000+08:00

I've had this dream
Every night
It hurts to scream
It hurts to fight

To think that it may
One day be true
To be shot in the face
Till I turn blue

To die that second
With the shock on his face
To be dead
To not see the disgrace

Why do I have this
Single dream
Every night
Till I scream

Why does it
Wake me up
Every morning
When I gasp

My last dream
May have come true
But this one I hope
Stays a dream to you

I don't want it to happen
And neither do you
For you to read this
And know that this dream can't be true

I wake up every morning
With this dream in my head
Haunting me everyday
Probably till the day I am dead

But, I say this to God
King of all Kings
Don't let this happen
Please, not to me

My Best Friend

2007-06-08T22:37:00.000+08:00

I tell you this now
Cause I know you will ask
At to how
I seem to last

With all the things that happen
And all the things that hurt
With all the mistakes
And all the lies

I'm sorry if I hurt you
I'm sorry I lied
I'm sorry that I didn't tell
The truth from the start

I know I have upset you
But I say this to you now
You are my best friend
And that I value, here & now

I know you wish to see me
I know that you trust
I see that you are special
And that in this I must

I promise to you, I will
Forever love you
The bar could never hold
What I feel towards you

So now I say thank you
You forgave when I did
I did do wrong by you
I know that I did

I say to you, thank you
Thank you from the start
Thank you for helping me
And showing the ways of love

Many do tell me
That there are mistakes in life
But I say to you now
You're not one of them

You mean the world to me
I value you more than most
So now I say thank you
Thank you so much, my friend

this is to you hayley, you mean the world to me & i'm so sorry that i hurt you, i'm so sorry, but i thank you for forgiving me, cause i value it, i love you so much hayley, believe me i do, i love you like more than
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that much, serious, i do, thank you hayley, thanks so much

Pain

2007-05-11T22:20:00.000+08:00

i try to smile everyday
but it seems impossible in every way
the pain, the hurt, the disgrace
where you can't see to his grace

the pain that slowly swells inside
the emotional that always hides
the physical that's easy to see
the mental, the remains to me

it may hard, but you must cope
it's not the end of your rope
the pain, the hurt, the disgrace
you have to seek, to find his grace

so don't forget, what you can't see
the emotional that remains far from sight
the physical that's not meant to be
and the mental, that one day might

it might just disappear
from all that can't hear
the scream that comes from our heart
the God, that remains close, not far

so i say this to you now
God screams when we're in pain
he's quiet through our pleasures
yet he catches the tears that fall

he always says to me
when i cry & want to scream
don't cry my girl
my lack of jars you see

he captures every tear
and treasures it, holds it near
he listens to you breathe
and forever is able to hear

your breathe & your life
the joy that's captured inside
he sees the lies & deceit
that many may not see

he smiles when you laugh
he cries when your in pain
he makes himself known
through every type of rain

he cares if you're alright
he longs to talk to you
he wants to hear your voice
he's screaming out to you

so i ask you, listen
listen & you shall hear
his scream & his tears
when you can't see that he's near

i ask you now, listen
he's screaming out to you
he wants to hear your voice
he's standing next to you

whether you choose to see him
is totally up to you
whether you choose to listen
is the decision you can choose

he wants to hold you close
yet you seem to be resisting
he's there calling out to you
and he's there when you can't see him

thanks to simon, you inspired this, don't ask me why this seems to happen, maybe, it's just your messages actually touch something in me, trust me on this, i don't force myself to write these, i have to have the urge to write, to be able to, how often that happens, i don't know, but i know this, your messages inspire my poems, well some of them, so thanks

That Fateful Day

2007-05-05T17:08:00.000+08:00

to look back and see
what god has done for me
to see him on that cross
and just seem to think of me

to die for everyone
just so they could live
to be able to talk
and share out many gifts

i know this fateful day
that he thought for everyone
he put all our sin
in one single glass

he drank it & placed it
all our sin upon him
that thick black fluid
now dwelled within him

he said to his father
"forgive them my father
for the people of this world
know not what they do"

that fateful day
he died for everyone of us
the scars on his hands
the life drained from him

he did that just for us
to show how much he loved
every single one of us
to help and to cherish

so on that fateful day
he died on that cross
to save our souls
and to show us his love

i leave you all with a thought
and question for you
do you remember
that one fateful day

No More

2007-05-05T13:34:00.001+08:00

People do hurt
I know that for sure
Physical doesn't last
But emotional, no more

What I mean by that
Is I struggle each day
The pain that's inside
As I follow his way

I'm scared to admit this
But I know this for sure
The pain & the hurt
That hides behind closed doors

I know it does hurt
The insults & the pain
Things that have happened
The shower of rain

People do say
About sticks & stones
But I say this now
Please, no more

You make me cry
Each day & each night
To hurt & to scream
I look to my king

The comfort that's there
The look in his eyes
As he looks at me
And he slowly cries

The proud father
The hurt and the pain
Just seems to vanish
Like a rainbow after rain

The smile that spreads
Across his face
The look in his eyes
And all of his grace

I was meant to write this
To say to you all
Sticks & stones
Shall hurt only small

But the emotional pain
The pain behind doors
That nobody sees
God sees it all

Whether you like it or not
He will help you through
There's a light at the end
For me & for you

So I leave you with this
It will hurt if you let it
Don't dwell on it my friend
Just please don't forget him

GOD VS. SCIENCE

2007-05-05T13:17:00.000+08:00

Everyone hurts
At one time or another
But all must know
How to love each other

I know it is hard
When life throws you coal
But it's not impossible
To accomplish your goal

It may be hard
Just to believe
But I tell you this now
All must see

The miracle of birth
Is creation you see?
To care & to love
And give honour to thee

Science may say
That none of this happened
We evolved from amoeba
Or monkeys or apes

But I tell you this now
NONE OF IT'S TRUE
We were created
For a purpose, for you

He died on that cross
He sacrificed himself
He will keep us safe
From the depths of hell

He loves you & I
And forever he will
To cry when we cry
As we do his will

So I tell you this now
Don't believe what science says
Big evolution doesn't happen
But the small stuff he made

To end this poem
I say to you now
Scientists are wrong
In what they believe

So I ask you, my friend
Leave this on your mind
Do you believe what has happened?
Or the truth that evidence can't find